my eyes are slow to waking to the dust filled light that swims around my head in a dizzying dance. these are the few precious seconds of morning consciousness where you are unaware of your body your mind and the room with the empty walls. these seconds are filled with nothing but oxygen that fills the lungs but does not yet touch the brain does not yet signal your logical state to shake off the silken cobwebs of sleep. but when those moments melt away like sugar on your tongue you are once again the victim of antagonizing reality.