Sometimes I want to live in molasses, to sleep cryogenically with a broken watch around my wrist and a crampon in my back pocket as icy insurance, but then I remember the way that the cold makes my fingers feel, stiff, shaken, and stuck to the inside of my pockets as I kick at charcoal, greying what is left of last December's beautiful snow, resolving at last that this year will soon melt through me, around slowly dying embers, wide awake and warm.