Nights and days and inward sunlit rooms
strange drugs and waking dreams
boundaries dissolve and burial mound moans
stomach knots unsure of what
whatever rises unknown & uncontrollable
out of nothing, everything
the everlasting, ever-loving mystery of all
the laughing hard-on
the eternal throbbing pulse of form
the formless energy made visible
mad for something; anything
an indication of reality, touch, grass
now fearful apprehension
now dreadful uncertainties
though all is uncertainly seen in light
a mirror image of itself
a lonely inching tendril
full of blind life
unknowable & unknowing
crouched w/ a sullen, risen fist
a hermit content to rule a room
w/ no designs upon anything
wishing only for solitude & asylum of the mind
weary from amazement & blind fear of endless mysterium
the lunatic lottery man approaches
full of glee for the luck I bring him
his fingers ***** from scratching endlessly
rosary sadly dangles
crisp bills & nothing really to say
please win it, please lose it
win it lose it win it lose it
are you a holy man? A religious man?
is your god a hallucination?
are you God Himself?
imposed upon a hard-tiled world?
Grandma died staring at a clock
time mocks the dying
& I waste the day with precious *******
habit boiled pure addiction
wonder why confused or sad
never working for real life pulse
pathetic in my chimp grunt
made a real mess didnee?
ooh wy? ooh wy? ooo wy?
now the regrettable loathing
with bright glimmer
now the sad carnival
all my heroes are angels
& all my angels have died
where has that illusive smirk gone?
the final blossom nothing