It's a game we play he offers me food saucy ribs and a mountainous heap of of mashed potatoes and a morsel of string beans, he calls it a full course meal. Dinner. Meat. Starch. And veggies but there's more meat and starch than veggies, actually. His serving size is quiet hope and I don't wish to break the silence. I stare at the meat on my plate until he finishes his and begins picking at mine. I leave the mountain and the river of oil drenched beans. I drink the water, pick the yellow slice of lemon with the curve of my spoon and suppress my tongue. He eats for him but mainly for me. We have dinner and we skip the desert.