sometimes i see pictures of you or videos of you
posted by your friends
and i see the same things i saw 10 months ago
the little curl of hair behind your ear when it gets too long
and i whisper to you
"you've got a curl, it's time to cut your hair again."
and i see that the corner of your lip is hitched up again
in a half smile
and i say to you
"what's so funny, love?"
but i keep forgetting you can't hear me anymore
saying the things i shouldn't have said to begin with
like the
"I love you too."
i typed to you the night we thought we were clouds.