i'm starting
to think of you
less and less.
but each time i do
it's increasingly
more painful.
and i don't know why
you're becoming
lesser and lesser
maybe it's me
finally understanding
what summer was for.
to have distance from you
and drop you from my heart
like a lever being pulled
and you falling through the bottom.
or maybe the thought of you
is just starting to become
so painful that i am
blocking you.
what am i going to do
in one month from now?

|m.s.