God don't leave me behind

I'm not a ******
And I'm no thief

You show me love
Through every way
You know how

And ignore you, all the same
I don't acknowledge you as much as I should
Yet you bless me

I try to mend broken hearts
I care for those who don't care about themselves
I strive to make this world a better place

Isn't that enough to hear at least a word

I wished I loved you as much as my lover does
But I don't want to love you because I'm afraid my lover will eventually leave me if I soon don't

Although not loud enough to drown my praise and love for you
Small thoughts linger in my mind wondering if there's anyone out there hearing my pleas

I want to edify people's lives
But what good am I without you
But all the same I ain't no saint or priest

Can I deal with not believing in you?
If not you, than who or what

I'm distraught, and falling apart
Yet when I forget to remember you are there
I seem to be alright

What if I get to the point where you completely leave my mind
Nonsense, hope I fear not that thought

Strip me down and take me bare
Take everything away from me
And give it to someone who deserves it more
Perhaps my lover is overdue for your bliss

I know I ain't no one to demand you show yourself to me

Make me miserable and take me on a search
Trouble me until you show me light or let me die

I don't want to be voluntary to your love
You must force me to focus my love on you and no one else

How can this burning love and pain for humanity
Be randomly in my soul
Surely, there's something that's pushing me there
And that has to be you

My carnal body sins and I'm ashamed
But if you really want to show your love
Control my mind

My body ain't worth a dime
But my soul screams I want out!
There is a spirit in me and its searching for that place it belongs

The thought of a mechanism in the psychology of my mind
Faintly lingers while I research myself

Pure intentions then fight with cynicism invading the border lines

But how can man manufacture the soul
Am I being cynical for thinking maybe someone has or soon will

God is there a point in not believing in anything
Converting and finding myself in such a way is just a game

How can there be meaningfulness and purpose without faith
You have to be real but why don't I consider you in everything I do

Life is going so fast
I stray away from hearing
Music praising your name
Because I'm ashamed that I haven't prayed today

Suddenly I get annoyed
Why? Because I'm reminded to thank you for keeping me alive

You should be the center of my day
I'm sorry
In your love I want to change

And I don't want to feel guilty about being with the one I love

God don't leave me behind