I'm healed

Things have happened

Things have changed

Things have gone on

I'm not the same

I've been through fire

I've been through pain

I've been crushed

I'm not the same

I'm healed

How did I get here?

It wasn't easy.

My pain was at a high when I cut deep

Deeper than I ever had

And in that moment I realized

How easy

It would be

To die.

To DIE.

I was scared

I prayed for help to heal

That was when healing began

I tried to resist self inflicted pain

But failed countless times

I learned to get back up

Forgive myself

And keep going

Days turned into weeks

Weeks turned into months

With my therapist's help

I've been self harm free

For about 6 or 7 months

I no longer struggle with depression

My negativity

My anger

My hatred

My pain-

They aren't gone.

They just no longer have any hold onto me.

I've learned to let go of them.

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roxy-denoir

American

Published: Aug 4, 2014
LinesWords: 39161

Notes: Coming on here after such a long time is so shocking. I can truly see where I was and how far I've come.

I won't be deleting anything though. This is a page in my life and without all the darkness and pain-

I wouldn't be the same person that I am today. I wouldn't be as empathetic and sympathetic towards others. I wouldn't be as kind and compassionate as I am.

My problems broke me, but out of all that came me: who I am today. And I am glad that what happened did happen, and praise God I'm a better person for it.

I still struggle with the negativity. I still have bad days. I just don't dwell on the negative anymore.

I still can't believe some of the things I wrote....

But I'm better now. :)

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