Aug 2014
Things have happened
Things have changed
Things have gone on
I'm not the same
I've been through fire
I've been through pain
I've been crushed
I'm not the same
I'm healed
How did I get here?
It wasn't easy.
My pain was at a high when I cut deep
Deeper than I ever had
And in that moment I realized
How easy
It would be
To die.
To DIE.
I was scared
I prayed for help to heal
That was when healing began
I tried to resist self inflicted pain
But failed countless times
I learned to get back up
Forgive myself
And keep going
Days turned into weeks
Weeks turned into months
With my therapist's help
I've been self harm free
For about 6 or 7 months
I no longer struggle with depression
My negativity
My anger
My hatred
My pain-
They aren't gone.
They just no longer have any hold onto me.
I've learned to let go of them.
Things have changed
Things have gone on
I'm not the same
I've been through fire
I've been through pain
I've been crushed
I'm not the same
I'm healed
How did I get here?
It wasn't easy.
My pain was at a high when I cut deep
Deeper than I ever had
And in that moment I realized
How easy
It would be
To die.
To DIE.
I was scared
I prayed for help to heal
That was when healing began
I tried to resist self inflicted pain
But failed countless times
I learned to get back up
Forgive myself
And keep going
Days turned into weeks
Weeks turned into months
With my therapist's help
I've been self harm free
For about 6 or 7 months
I no longer struggle with depression
My negativity
My anger
My hatred
My pain-
They aren't gone.
They just no longer have any hold onto me.
I've learned to let go of them.
Coming on here after such a long time is so shocking. I can truly see where I was and how far I've come.
I won't be deleting anything though. This is a page in my life and without all the darkness and pain-
I wouldn't be the same person that I am today. I wouldn't be as empathetic and sympathetic towards others. I wouldn't be as kind and compassionate as I am.
My problems broke me, but out of all that came me: who I am today. And I am glad that what happened did happen, and praise God I'm a better person for it.
I still struggle with the negativity. I still have bad days. I just don't dwell on the negative anymore.
I still can't believe some of the things I wrote....
But I'm better now. :)
I won't be deleting anything though. This is a page in my life and without all the darkness and pain-
I wouldn't be the same person that I am today. I wouldn't be as empathetic and sympathetic towards others. I wouldn't be as kind and compassionate as I am.
My problems broke me, but out of all that came me: who I am today. And I am glad that what happened did happen, and praise God I'm a better person for it.
I still struggle with the negativity. I still have bad days. I just don't dwell on the negative anymore.
I still can't believe some of the things I wrote....
But I'm better now. :)
