Initially, I didn't know what to expect on my first day of service. I wasn’t sure how the student’s or teachers would respond to having me in their classroom considering the trouble I found myself in last year. I wasn’t sure if the teachers would know of my suspension and fear me as being a violent person. Fortunately to my surprise, none of the teachers have treated me any more or less. I Often find myself feeling inadequate to an extent at times, not having any classes at the High School. Having to tell them that I’m attending the Alternative school, I can see the disappointment in their reaction. That isn’t only with my former teachers, but anyone in general.  
                My first day of service Becky greeted me with open arms, making the experience all the more welcoming. She introduced me to the class as a teacher and not as another student. This in respect gave me a profound sense of purpose, like what I was doing there may have meant something to her. I see this all as a learning experience, but isn’t everything in life. A testament, or trial if you will of one’s personal character. How much can you take? How many times can you be knocked down and rise above to overcome and persevere, finding success in the face of opposition.        
           I feel as though there are just as many of those who want to see me fail as there who want me to succeed. I’ve been to Hell and back and back again, nevertheless I’ve always managed to maintain a positive aura and keep a sensible charisma about myself. I want to think of myself as being a role model to these kids. I try and be just that when I sit in for classes at the middle school. I know that it’s a normal human interaction to learn from what you see. I believe that with all my heart and soul to be true.  
             We don’t have any real leaders. Ones that are trying to help our kids with life, and telling them that everythings going to be alright. If a child doesn’t have a role model in their parents, then what do they have? Our generation seeks advice to their problems through false idols that make us feel incompetent for not being as beautiful or having as many riches or material possessions. I want to make these children feel that they can confide in me for guidance.
          Through this experience I’ve learned to except the task at hand and carry on. To maintain your stature when a problem arises. No matter how hard things may get, giving up and giving in are not optional for me anymore. I want to teach these students that life is going to throw obstacles in their paths to test their strength and resilience and how you handle these situations ultimately shapes the person you will become. You may not always agree with an assignment a teacher gives you and if you choose not to do the assignment, you’re only hurting yourself, the teacher doesn’t have anything to do with your success or failure. Whether you succeed or fail is directly attributed to the effort you put forth.