deciding what to do, knowing what do, it is all so complicated, i dont know wehre life is taking me and i dont know wher i want life to take me, i want joy but all i get is deception, how do i decide what path to take, what choices to make when all odds are against, when everyone is against my choices, how do you know right from wrong, blue from purple, life from death, how do you decide what you mean to others, what they mean to you, what anything means, how do you know you love someone or youhate someone, how do you know if you love yourself, or if you should slowly break yourself down, how do you know??