pain has sank into the crevices of my soul & left me drowning because every bone in my body is traced with your name. melodies are screaming and I wish I was bleeding. I'd allow myself to drown from blood but not the weight of your name along the curve of my spine. my eyes are puffy and inside deflated. I've cried every ounce of water in my system and am expecting to die of dehydration while sailing my way out of this world in a river of tears of my creation. my insomnia has only grown worse and watching the sun rise every morning has become a tradition of bad habit because I dread for the hours of daylight where I can pretend I'm okay and draw a smile upon my face that is slowly becoming less innocent to the naive and more rebellious by the minute. but even pretending can go so far before you're entire fantasy comes crashing down and you're standing in the aftermath wondering, where the hell did I go wrong.