When you left my house I almost offered you a receipt Because you left me like Tourists leave a hotel room
I look back now and Know why I lost so much weight I was trying to make more room for you So that you could fill me with your love, I thought
Really, I just made it that much easier For you to rip my heart out Without even rolling up your sleeves It was that easy
“Going to stay with a friend” Felt like you stole the kingdom’s Jewels and left.
That’s why I stay up so late I’ve realized that it’s always when I let you in That you let yourself out the door
So I fall “in love” with Grindr profiles that remind me of Pieces of us that I’m still picking up Sorting out which pieces go to which Of our puzzles
I just wish I could tell myself Apart from you I’ve inhaled so much of you Like the smoke that burnt Every time we touched
It had to be that way Because I was playing with fire And I didn’t realize that We may as well have been Slow dancing in a burning room
I write letters to you that I’ll never mail In secret languages, I tell you how stupid we both are Knowing **** well that what I’m really saying is That parts of me are still confused
Confused as to whether or not you actually Ever loved me or if I was more like the lab specimens We hung out with
I want to be the fire that burns Against the skin of lovers who speak in secret tongues Not in notes I tear up in the dark But in gasps and croaks
Instead of croaking Like another dissection frog You experimented with: **Even though you earned an A for your work, I failed you because you never appreciated the class