you’re drinking yourself to death
every december you do this
i dream of your death in the obituary
discussed in medical detail

truth and dares upon the deathbed
derailed from your plan
denounced as a liar
you’re still delightful in my eyes

you riddle your wrists with dashes
do you desire life today?
daily I debate your decision
dark, dangerous, repressed, depressed

i can’t decide your destiny
you must distinguish
what is real and what is wrong

dearest, you’re dreaming
daring drugged and drunk
please never disappear