I have lost sight of which direction in which to pick my feet up in.
I am lost here.
I am drowning in this sea of
Everything and everybody being like everybody else
And never being able to feel anything different
Anything better than this.
I am so scared that I will never feel anything again
That I wont breakdown
And come back together for this...
For my one chance
My one life.
I am wasting away here
Forgetting to remember why I am standing here,
Moving here.
Forgetting to remember why my hands shake,
Why my heart is concrete.
Forgetting to remember why my thoughts drive everywhere inside my head,
And no where near touching this earth.
I am not touching this earth.
I cannot feel this moment.
I am only scared here
And sorry here
That I can’t be here
And share something worth missing.
I am sorry that I have nothing to give here,
To build here for myself
but, mostly for you.

I see how much you need me to be here…