I'm in great depression in life that's my main obsession it holds me like I am their own possession wants me to say I am fine instead of my real emotions keeps my feelings with succession  comes out of nowhere &attacks; me with such aggression  only leads me  with one direction sadness madness numbness no other kind of expression I tired to say my confession of how it goes through progression  at times it gives me an impression that I Will be better soon  instead I am left with *******  I can't even Slove my own equation telling my mind to have some type session  speaks to me all  about my  imperfections it gets  scary in there with all the tension saying  I am some sort of infection that needs to be a suspension externally telling me suggestions for all it wants to mention is to end it all &leave; everyone out with no sort connection so it leaves me hanging with no protection to vanish myself in front of half broken  mirror & see my own reflection of how I'm not such a great  exception and I'm not at perfection. Until this day I'm still left termination.