i lifted the boxes from left to right
counting all the contents
my mind drifting far away from the clothes on my back
i was with you sometimes
smiling through the daily routines i was bound to
i knew i had found a life in yours
a substance i wasn’t familiar with
you are the first
a question so alive in my memories eyes i had believed it a myth
it seemed a whole life
or the years i could call these walking the Earth
i had been a lone solider
noticing sentiments in the way you spoke
my reflection in your eyes
as my body con caved from those words
i knew it was real
an elixir pulsing through my veins
you could feel it
leaking out of my heart
into yours

i always knew i would
lost in learning
i had to make myself believe
i didn’t need it
or want it
because i knew
it was the essence
the missing piece well hidden from plain site
you are my first

if you have to leave i trust you
i can believe you’re there in my heart
but you will and will never be mine
you are the Earths
and the lights
a fellow nefelibata
a solider sometimes holding my hand
this ride could take us anywhere
i don’t mind

you are my first