like a starving child on the bleak desert morning without his mother
I am desperate for you
like a barren cave filled with nothing but its own emptiness
wishing
praying
someone would come in to discover its beauty
I am yearning in these black oceans for you

burnt like a savage
a bull giving into the native
letting him stab and pursue him
use his very skin for a home
I try to limp away
with my tongue hanging out of my mouth helpless
I leave stains of the smaller things inside of me
my blood leaks out like a waterfall
this
this is how
I give into my loneliness

I am a sullen movement in the heart of life itself
reach out to me

bring me back from here

yet when I come back to my sober mind
I think

how it would be better
if I sit here in my own dark cave
never lighting a candle
dark
endless for you to find
completely taking you out of my mind
until the end of time