I been broken almost all of my life. I been taking it the wrong way as well. I always consider it as a huge curse upon me. But it was actually a blessing in disguise. For if it was not for the brokenness, in me. I would not have ever gotten to know God. For he reveal himself to me through the brokenness. Thus so the brokenness was actually a super blessing I thank my Savior for the blessings that he bestow upon me.