I really just wish
I was special
to someone
it is a disgusting felling
knowing that no one needs you
or even really wants you
the fact that I could die
and no one would really be phased by it
the fact that I could be gone forever
and no one would care
that hurts
and knowing that I will always be nothing to everyone
and never anything to anyone
and no matter how hard I try to be something to myself
they will never need me
and that every person who had seen my face
can forget it in an instant and never be bothered by it
I don't even need me
or want me
I guess they are right