all I wanted was you. I wanted to be there for you at 3:00 am when no one else was awake to listen to you and let you tell them what was going on in that mysterious mind of yours. I wanted to be that girl you called yours and wouldn't ever let me go. I wanted you to call me beautiful and I would disagree with you to no ends because I always would and you would always disagree back. I wanted to be that person that consumed your every thought. you know  like how when you are a kid when you go to sleep on Christmas Eve and you are laying there wondering in the morning what are the amazing things you are going to get. I wanted to become a part of who you are and who you will become. I wanted you tell me the I deserved the world even though I would tell you I wouldn't know what to do with it because I am such a realist and can never just say something like "that's so sweet". I wanted to be the reason that you smile that perfect smile of yours. all these things are the things I use to always think about how much I wanted but now all I think I want is to be able to shake the overwhelming thoughts of you away from my mind it's almost like you made your own little place in my brain and don't even know it, or like you engraved yourself into my soul, devouring my never ending thoughts. maybe one day I will give you that kid on Christmas morning feeling, or maybe we will give that feeling to someone else someday because of what we learned from each other. I will forever wonder about what was, what could have been, and what will never be. but for now it's time to forget all the things we could have been, and the things we never will be. and the things we didn't get to share, and the things we did. it's time to move on and just be me.
    
      - L.K.W