all of my life has been a sad compilation of attempts at trying to change myself to fit in.
to listen to a certain genre of music or dress a certain way in hopes of gaining someone's attention and even more, admiration. "listen to this, wear that, laugh now, bat your eyelashes more"

it's always been about pleasing people and morphing my own likes and views to appeal to other people's desires

until i met you.

when i first met you i drowned all of those made-up personality traits. i burned all of the clothes in my closet that didn't make me feel like myself. i trashed all of the makeup that everyone convinced me "made me look so beautiful"

because i knew that you didn't care. and that's not a bad thing. you didn't care about the music i listened to, the things i wore, or how i looked when i woke from a deep sleep.

you cared about the content of my character. you cared about the goodness of my heart and the beauty of my soul.

because of you, i love the person i truly am when no one is looking. i love the person i am even when people are looking. because of you, there is no difference between the two.

                                                               ­                             -h.m.r.