I wonder if he knew I was there. My father, that is. We were not very close at that time. Typical things Hair too long Wasting energy on foolish things And on foolish friends. He worked too hard for nothing I wanted And I worked too hard at nothing. Words grew sparse with increasing distance. When the time came that I was not quite a man And he dwindling away. I would go to the hospital on my lunch break, Creep into his room. At first he put on the brave face "Gonna fight this bear" But the bear was tireless and metastasized. Often when I arrived, ***** and sweat stained He would be asleep And so I would sit nearby And if he woke we would talk. I would encourage him to eat And he'd say "I'll try". But often my time would pass His eyes still closed. And I would creep back out. Decades later, I wonder Did he know how many hours I spent Wordless and waiting. Unaware of what I needed to say And believing there was nothing worth hearing.