If my destination is to die even a painful way here on the earth so be it.
For Christ shall be my strength if I to die by my having my head chop off.
If my destination is to get hurt painfully then so be it as long as its Gods plan.
But if either is the demons or men doing then protect me O God.
For I am not one that enjoy suffering anymore, but will do so for the Lord.
For to Live a life without any purpose is not to Live a life at all.
To suffer for Christ is one thing, but to needlessly suffer is not my goal.
It would be like Falling in Love with a sadist that is out to crucified you.