O how I will change

Right now I'm sitting next to a fire thinking about how lonely I am
How horrible my life is
I'm thinking about how I'm throwing a pity party and I know it
I'm thinking about how I want to burn my hand in the fire and punch the walls
I'm thinking about all of my emotions
Im thinking about how pathetic I am sitting here thinking I have it bad
But at the back of my mind
In a reinforced, diamond encrusted, adamantium cage
Sits the belief that I will change
And
O HOW I WILL CHANGE
I will smile
I will laugh and talk to people
I will help people
I will be handsome
I will have figured myself out a bit more
I will no longer have pimples

And that is
How I
Will change