I used to want to be in love, And read Pablo Neruda in the sun On creaking porch steps in spring, Understanding, it wasn’t always hard like this
It wasn’t always hard like this, It once was fresh, like cut grass Without the splendid stains of *** And the strange maturity it imbues. It wasn’t always hard like this, It once was gorgeous, plain-spoken but Warm and glowing as it welled up In me and through you. It wasn’t always hard like this, We used to talk, On your moonlight bed and in my cluttered closet. Our voices carried by phone line. Across the city, and under the night. We talked for so long, Untill the dawn broke like Rose petals, and orange peels.
But I miss you, Your sweet-wax smell And your cherry lip gloss, My darling, once half To my unfinished whole, I miss you, I remember reading Keats To you in sunny lawn chairs, Time forgot us both.