i'd like to remember you
in the greatest light
how perfect your smile was
how firm you touched me
the way you laughed on the basketball court
the nights we made love and meant it
your rants about gardening
your voice lifting when you spoke confidently
your lips as you would recite every lyric to Lil Wayne
your mind as we would lay side by side
how warm your skin felt against mine
our mutual love for the secret Mexican spot
your blue, blue eyes
how soft they would stare at me
for a time
and god, i loved that time
you hated your hands
but oh, i loved them
you owned me
i was your map
for a time
and god, i miss that time
when your words breathed romance
and i felt drunk off what you were giving out
and you gave, and you gave, and you gave
and it felt insane
it felt free
it felt like i was in love

oh, i want to remember all this
and not your striped underwear on the floor
to the left of you
her legs tangled in your sheets
your head, cowered
eyes hung over the drapes of shame
we all felt
in different ways

don't make this the last thing i see from you
you decide that
you show me
if you want to