looking back
i remember the first day
you and i hung out alone together
it was early in the morning
and it was all for you
you, wearing your faded black levi's
along with nervous energy
running through your legs
into mine
i felt it
all the while
your green hoodie containing it all
in
i could hardly believe you were allowing me a shared space
at one time, i thought i was the luckiest girl
you gave me the People magazine that had haunted my entire childhood
good god, what is childhood
but wrecked hopes and defeat?
You captured it all perfectly between your teeth
and the gasp i let out when i opened your gift
but now god, what is now
but frustrations and held in sighs?
When i loved you, i wanted to die
when you loved me, i wanted everything