Hidden away from the reassuring morning light
I wonder if you're listening to love songs for someone else while you lay next to me
I held my breath waiting for my turn at holding your heart
Hoping that it would be the right fit
But it seemed too heavy for my small hands
If I dropped it
Would it even shatter?
Or would it bounce back?
Flying even higher than it was before?
Your veil of self-assurance seems to be ripping at the seams
But it still blinds me
Seeing black
Bleeding hands reaching out
never giving up on the sharp edges that cut them
They say that I should let go

How many songs can I write about going against the odds before the odds play out?
How many times will your careless words start to fill me with doubt?
How long until I have no more blood to lose?
Just hold my hand
Count the scars
I count them like other people count stars

I don't think much of my own heart
As it's not my own
You keep it in pieces
On the soles of your shoes
Swept under the bed
Turning into the monster that you don't want to face
But one day  you will have to
A piece in your pocket that you take out in the quiet of sunrise
To see if it still shines in the light
Radiating the warmth that once kept you holding on tight

If you gather all the pieces
And hold it up to the light
You  would see that shine
You would find that unending desire to never give up the fight
A beauty that only could come from within
Make me whole
Play god
And bring me back to life again