It's taking all of my muscles all of my bones
my skin stretches out taught with the tension
I moan into your shoulder
my dad is sick, I tell you
I think about you inside of me
cancer is a strange word for people like me
selfish ***** with unrealistic life expectations
all I want to tell you is all you don't want to hear
I can't let it leave me
I gave you my body I thought it was enough
like we could handshake and you could leave to Chicago
I am so stupid and so scared
you told me you were scared at how much you liked me
I'm scared because I love you
we laid naked in my parent's guest bedroom when I told you about the cancer
you kissed my lips and told me you wanted to help me not be sad
but I love you
words are words and don't belong to teenagers
I thought I knew but I know ****
Chicago is two thousand miles away
you are lovely and **** and stupidly smart
I am naked for you
I gave you my body but now I want to give you my heart
I don't know why people do this
bones and muscles are frustrating cages
lock me away in the dark
shut me up before I say something stupid
I love you