Arms left hanging above my head
As a silent war wages
Words of torment ring
Through my head

Sitting here with others
While a silent torture is mine to endure
My body daring to continue
Mind falling to pieces

He who should save me
Is the cause of my torment
She who has saved me
Is my dearest wish

The wish I dare to dream
Forgiveness not a possibility
Fantasies turning into reality
Though my mind continues to dissect

Everything good
That comes my way
Falls to my hearts blade
In the form of attacks