If you are failing Christ, stand firm he see the heart. While people judge the outward appearance so trust. For Christ is shaping you, for the very next life ahead. All we can do is trust Christ with our hearts , he knows what he is doing. He also knows what each and everyone of us is doing now. Remember one thing trust God for he is working on your behalf. He is carrying you through all of your trials that you are going through. He been with you the whole time shaping you for the next life. So whatever you do do not give up and trust God he is there for you.