this woman I knew died in a car crash
her husband died, too
I guess that's better than just one of them dying
you know?
and the other one being left to pick up the pieces
having to wake up in the morning without her
setting the table for one instead of for two
filling cardboard boxes with his clothes
going through life with a heart half empty

****,
call me cynical but
I think it was a miracle
that neither of them survived
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(it makes me sick to my stomach thinking about anything happening to you - i want to go if you go)