You gave me the gun
but told me not to put my finger on the trigger until I was ready.
When you looked away
I aimed toward the sky and shot
and I told you I was just adding fire to the sky
even though the sunset was already taking care of that for me.
A few more drinks and we were running
chasing each other into the sun
and I could hear you laughing and slurring my name
each letter thick and heavy with liquor and love.
I tried to catch you
but you've always been out of my reach.
I stopped running just to watch you
and you were so beautiful with the sunlight around you
making you out to be some sort of escaping angel.
I would have followed you anywhere.
The colors in the sky started to fade the longer we ran
and as the night time approached
so did you.
You were gasping for air
and smiling like the world was your oyster
and I was turning into your pearl
after all these years of pressure and solitude
my grains and fiber were turning into something you found indispensable.
The best part is being made by you,
your being shaped me,
molded me into something you love
but I just don't know how to be something you miss.
When you're gone
it's like my entire structure aches for you.
My entire ****** make up craves you,
every strand of DNA
every nerve ending sparks to life
just to remind me of your absence.
The ultimate test
of unrequited love;
is to listen to someone explain
how their days began and ended with you
and to never tell them how you feel.
I prayed for three days
for you to tell me you loved me back
but all i got was changed subjects
and silence.
I am too often a friend of Silence
and that's why I shattered it with your name last tuesday night
so the broken pieces allowed us to have something to talk about.
If I was a knot
You would have frayed me
to the point where I could never fit with someone else.
You are very much like concrete
always stable
but it took a while for you to stop letting people step into you on accident.
Thats why you hardened,
That's why it's so hard for you to let me in
because there is no door to open.
So I had to make my own
and I'm sorry if my questions drilled into you
but I wanted to see if you'd break for me.
I promise to pick up your pieces
just like I always have
but this time
let me be the one to patch you up again.
I've got liquor to hold you together
and a Love that never breaks.