I sit here looking at this screen
But somehow to my mind totally unseen
Invisible - not partially a part of my view
Why you ask me?
I have a trail of thoughts roaming my head
Confusion spinning me out of control
I think I love, but do I really?
I think I know, but without wisdom?
I think I won, but without a battle?
I laugh inside…sarcastically
I wait…
More thoughts, more issues, more.. more...more..
Stop this insanity let it die within me…
**** this feeling of hopelessness and loss!
I cry out screaming in silence
My soul burning my head turning!
Release me free me….
For this torment I can not longer bare
What I have done I myself can blame
What I have caused is to me alone shame
The punishment all self afflicted
Oh is there a way to end all this?
How do I begin, what can I do?
How is it so…so unbelievably true?
Oh, God have mercy on me…