Well, life is a living hell hole filled with nothing but ignorant, belligerent, *** motivated, insecure beings.  Haha.. I haven't been on this site in probably years.. and its been longer since I've posted anything. I miss having some sort of outlet besides my music. I remember, there was comment posted on one of my pieces and this man, a very kind man, complimented me and had said my name was musical.. I remember sitting there, in front of my computer, smiling and repeatedly speaking my name aloud. It sounds like something silly and pity but it meant something to me at the time and on occasion still does. All I have to do is remember that time and I feel warm all over again. I love memories, they're fun. Remembering how you maybe changed someone's mood and made their day better in some way or maybe how your mood was changed and made your ****** day better. I wish I had a little bit of both happening in my life right now. Everything going on just seems so **** negative that it has me in that mind set.. and I HATE IT.. This isn't me, this isn't Jossie..