Of course I know.
      I know this will not solve anything.
I know this is only hurting me.
I know.
       I don't do it for problem solving, but for relief.
That's what you don't know.
You don't know how it makes me feel.
How it helps me feel better about myself.
How it somehow, even for just a couple seconds, it makes me forget about why I am doing this.
You don't know.
                         -N.U