Nov 2010
I'm not even really sure what to say
Or how I should explain
Today is Father's day
And I've always had this pain.
It's right here in my heart
And I'll never let it go
Even though we've been apart
I can still feel it so.
It's not the easiest thing
To know you're gone today
I'm still hurting
And this is what I've wanted to say:
I know you left when I was little
But that's not what this is about
You didn't want us to be caught in the middle
And I've never had my doubt.
You had a reason to leave
And I accept this now
Though it was always hard to believe
That you could just walk out.
But that's what being a dad is like
You make big decisions on behalf of your offspring
And that was the right choice to better our life
And alleviate some -could be- lifetime suffering.
Though I still had lots of tears
I trust your decision was right
And after all these years
I now see with God's sight:
This was meant to ensue
You were meant to pass away
We were meant to live without you
And life goes on anyway.
I love you more than you know
And that will never change
Though I didn't want you to go
I have to except this new pain.
It helps me realize a lot of things
A lot of truths and rights
I know that God sometimes brings
Obstacles that we have to fight.
So now you know my thoughts
I wrote this for you
And I completely love you lots
And I know you love me too.
Besides all the mistakes
And the big choices you made
I won't slam the brakes
On my own life today.
I'll keep strong
And celebrate this holiday
Smile even when I feel wrong
Cause today is Father's day.
No reason to frown
You were a good man, and still are in my heart
I won't let this day bring me down
Because that's what you've wanted from the start.
You've just wanted us to be happy and safe
That was your plan from the get-go
And with all the dilemmas in the first place
Your choice made us happier even so.
I love you even though I don't feasibly know you
And love you now that you're gone
So I guess you knew that this decision was right to do
Because what happened is what you wanted all along.
Or how I should explain
Today is Father's day
And I've always had this pain.
It's right here in my heart
And I'll never let it go
Even though we've been apart
I can still feel it so.
It's not the easiest thing
To know you're gone today
I'm still hurting
And this is what I've wanted to say:
I know you left when I was little
But that's not what this is about
You didn't want us to be caught in the middle
And I've never had my doubt.
You had a reason to leave
And I accept this now
Though it was always hard to believe
That you could just walk out.
But that's what being a dad is like
You make big decisions on behalf of your offspring
And that was the right choice to better our life
And alleviate some -could be- lifetime suffering.
Though I still had lots of tears
I trust your decision was right
And after all these years
I now see with God's sight:
This was meant to ensue
You were meant to pass away
We were meant to live without you
And life goes on anyway.
I love you more than you know
And that will never change
Though I didn't want you to go
I have to except this new pain.
It helps me realize a lot of things
A lot of truths and rights
I know that God sometimes brings
Obstacles that we have to fight.
So now you know my thoughts
I wrote this for you
And I completely love you lots
And I know you love me too.
Besides all the mistakes
And the big choices you made
I won't slam the brakes
On my own life today.
I'll keep strong
And celebrate this holiday
Smile even when I feel wrong
Cause today is Father's day.
No reason to frown
You were a good man, and still are in my heart
I won't let this day bring me down
Because that's what you've wanted from the start.
You've just wanted us to be happy and safe
That was your plan from the get-go
And with all the dilemmas in the first place
Your choice made us happier even so.
I love you even though I don't feasibly know you
And love you now that you're gone
So I guess you knew that this decision was right to do
Because what happened is what you wanted all along.
SSK<3 AKA: Valerie
I didn't really know my dad, but I knew him a the same time. He left when I was very young. This is a poem I wrote on Father's Day, he passed last year in December and it was like a sense of closure for me when I found out. But at the same time it was Earth-shattering because the hope I had to see him one day was gone.
I didn't really know my dad, but I knew him a the same time. He left when I was very young. This is a poem I wrote on Father's Day, he passed last year in December and it was like a sense of closure for me when I found out. But at the same time it was Earth-shattering because the hope I had to see him one day was gone.
