Jun 2014
Dig me ditch
Dig me a home
Where I don't have to love anymore
Where my eyes will see clouds of dirt
And my body will lie still
I want you to dig me a home
And build me a fire
That warms me
So I can feel some hint of a spark again
So I can stop surviving and start living
Like I did
I want you to build me a fire
Make me one last supper
A simple apology on a platter
With the food groups being
The five stages of grief
But I won't consume it
It will consume me
You see that's what love does
It takes away your place in the world
And fills it with white walls
And blank space
It takes away your ability to feel
By putting a cloudy filter over your eyes
And an infinitely somber mask over every face
Love feeds you line after line
Of possibilities
From mountain tops
To the bottom of the sea
And the when your fattened and happy
It leaves you
With a hurricane in your heart
And a riot in your brain
There was once a refreshing ocean breeze
There was once a drizzle of hope
There was once a group of children
Who grew up and saw the world was cold
But now the storm whips through my internal organs
With the ferocity of a gods quest
And the rioters yell relapse in my mind
Because that's what I've learned to do best
There was once a simple sobriety to life
It was once okay to feel vulnerable
But vulnerability breeds love
And Love should be considered
A medical condition
A terminal carcinogen
Because it allows people to dig holes in your heart
So they'll always have a place there
And strike a spark in your lungs
So you'll always burn for them
Because it allows you to be fed
Images of a false future
And dreams of an alternate humanity
I was vulnerable for you
I opened my arms to the love
I didn't think I deserved
But I was certain that I'd need
Nobody ever tells you that love is a disease
It infects the brain so that you see
A false reality
But love has left my lungs drenched in water
And my organs pulling together as a community
To restore they're ecosystem to its former glory
To patch up the bloodied streets where the rioters commands took place
To stop the floods that the hurricane gave way
Love is a disease
A carcinogen
a riot
a storm
And a hoax
And I believe all the things
Because unlike you
I can't let ours go
Dig me a home
Where I don't have to love anymore
Where my eyes will see clouds of dirt
And my body will lie still
I want you to dig me a home
And build me a fire
That warms me
So I can feel some hint of a spark again
So I can stop surviving and start living
Like I did
I want you to build me a fire
Make me one last supper
A simple apology on a platter
With the food groups being
The five stages of grief
But I won't consume it
It will consume me
You see that's what love does
It takes away your place in the world
And fills it with white walls
And blank space
It takes away your ability to feel
By putting a cloudy filter over your eyes
And an infinitely somber mask over every face
Love feeds you line after line
Of possibilities
From mountain tops
To the bottom of the sea
And the when your fattened and happy
It leaves you
With a hurricane in your heart
And a riot in your brain
There was once a refreshing ocean breeze
There was once a drizzle of hope
There was once a group of children
Who grew up and saw the world was cold
But now the storm whips through my internal organs
With the ferocity of a gods quest
And the rioters yell relapse in my mind
Because that's what I've learned to do best
There was once a simple sobriety to life
It was once okay to feel vulnerable
But vulnerability breeds love
And Love should be considered
A medical condition
A terminal carcinogen
Because it allows people to dig holes in your heart
So they'll always have a place there
And strike a spark in your lungs
So you'll always burn for them
Because it allows you to be fed
Images of a false future
And dreams of an alternate humanity
I was vulnerable for you
I opened my arms to the love
I didn't think I deserved
But I was certain that I'd need
Nobody ever tells you that love is a disease
It infects the brain so that you see
A false reality
But love has left my lungs drenched in water
And my organs pulling together as a community
To restore they're ecosystem to its former glory
To patch up the bloodied streets where the rioters commands took place
To stop the floods that the hurricane gave way
Love is a disease
A carcinogen
a riot
a storm
And a hoax
And I believe all the things
Because unlike you
I can't let ours go
