it just hit me now
that he is really gone.

i can't seem to comprehend the fact
that he is no longer here
to keep me going
to push me to wake up every morning
to be happy
and to smile
and live.

i am now realizing
that he's gone.
he said goodbye
a week ago.
yet i am still trying to figure out why.

as i replay his words in my head
i die inside each time.

his voice
in my head
every hour of the day.

it hurts,
a lot
to know he's gone.

he was my everything
my world
but now i dont know what to do
now that my world has left me.

i am nothing
without him.

so i sit here
and write about him
pathetically
crying to myself,

because
i truly do
miss him,
dearly.