“I have finally slowly started to hate your existence. You know the state of your mind and body just before you drown into your sleep? The feeling is just like that. You slowly are involved into it without knowing much. But then, you are someone I had once been in love with and that creates a conflict between my heart and my mind. And it breaks my heart to accept the fact that we are not like what we were once. All the nights that we had spent together, not making love but playing action games till 12’o clock at midnight, sometimes even a bit more. Watching movies because you loved them and I could never deny watching them because you were what mattered to me more than my choices. Two scoops of ice-cream and that is exactly how you loved it. Flannel shirts, deep blue jeans and Vans that is how you carried yourself, everyday. It’s amazing and strange how things change, how promises are left to be broken even though you say you would never break them. God, I am left perplexed with these thoughts revolving around and in my head. But I swear to God, I had never wanted to hate you even though you gave me enough reasons to. I hate your existence but it shatters me; I am left shuddered. And yet, every time that I come across you or even get the slightest sight of you, I cannot help but smile. Yes, I still smile. I do not know why, but I do. I want to hit you, whack you, and slap some sense into you. Where have you been missing, where has that part to you that everyone loved, gone? I want these words to reverberate in your entire soul. I want you back. I need you back.”