Since you left, I have changed
I have cried and laughed and hated and loved
I have grown and stayed young
I have wished for death and felt full of life
I have felt empty and heavy with nothingness

I have waited...
waited...
waited.......
waited...........
Endlessly, it feels

Only 206 more days to go
Before, what?  I don't know
You see me every day?
You continue to stay away?
Will it even matter anymore?

My heart is silent and hard,
Protected against the love I see around me,
Against the longing I feel inside me
Waiting til it is safe
To bloom back into life
Once more