I AM CONFUSE

WHY BY SOMEONE I AM REFUSED
I AM ALIVE
BUT I AM ALSO DEAD
I AM HAPPY
BUT I AM ALSO SAD
FOR SOMEONE
I AM GOOD
BUT ALSO VERY BAD
FOR SOMEONE I AM VERY WORRIED
BUT I AM ALSO VERY GLAD
I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND
WHAT I AM DOING
WHY I AM FLYING
SO HIGHER AND HIGHER
EVEN
I CAN NOT ADMIRE
I AM STILL VERY CONFUSED
I THINK I SHOULD CHANGE MY MOD