I was falling into a deep pitch of darkness,
never having a thought of being rescued,
and only the thoughts of me falling into the abyss of darkness clouded my mind like how 21-gun salute resonates the deafening silence on one's death.
But I was saved by a blinding light,
warm arms wrapped me with comfort and security,
hands to hands with mine,
to stop me from falling.
Never have I thought I would be save by an angel in admits of all darkness that was eating me alive.
An angel he is, though we both said that we are of bad souls like devils.
Despite so, both our demons played well.
My heart beats fast around him,
and every poetry I write seems to only be indirectly pointed out of what seems to be him.
To say that this is a sickly puppy love wouldn't describe what I have for him.
An addiction, a complex disease, a deadly infatuation,
are what more seems to describe him in literal.
As if cigarettes and bottles of beers were more than enough to ****
I might eventually die from the presence of him.
On 2505, I brave myself,
confronting or more like pouring my tongue-tied words with feelings of afraid of being rejected,
but wholeheartedly he accepted me.
The feeling were mutual and an awkward kiss we shared.
I feel my dark world lighting up,
blinding me in the consuming brightness.
Ever since then,
I felt more sick.
It wasn't a negative effect,
but I was very much deeply fallen in those brown irises of his.
His words, his movements,
the way his hands fit with mine,
the way his lips capture mine in perfection,
how could I have still survive all these while?
As day passes,
I questioned myself,
"Was I worth it?"
"Am I good enough for him?"
The thoughts of him with another sickens me and made my blood boil.
But he ensures me by saying the same.
And again, the kisses came after.
As days passed,
I, who had been busy often,
found less time to spend with him.
Getting tired and frustrated at times,
but I always feel guilty.
He would ask me to sleep and rest,
though I can be quite stubborn,
but eventually my body gave in.
Despite so, he would never get mad at me,
and I wonder and wonder..
was I ever that good of a lover for him?
All these doubts are still in mind,
but nevertheless,
I hope that he wouldn't get bored of him.
And if ever do,
I would probably never stop chasing him.
Desperate and deeply in love,
that is the word to describing me.
But afterall, I'm just hopelessly in love with the man who is everything to me.
My best friend, my lover, my saviour, my anchor, my beautiful euphoria
and most importantly,
my everything.
Can you see how badly you have infatuated me with?