Afraid,
The strong one,
Hands on my hips,
Carrying everyones weight on my shoulders,
The rock,
The stone column,
But I disappear in a way,
Drowning amongst the needs of others,
Give me air,
Save,
Revive,
I saved you,
So who will be my hero?

Frightened,
I fear it,
the very same thing you say sets us free.
Afraid to be free?
No,
Afraid to let go
The walls have been built,
built strong and sturdy,
I sit,
Sit and look down at you,
Trying to learn how to be like you,
But alas,
I will never be.

Confused,,
I look down,
And there he is.
Who is he?
I wonder,
Ponder,
He must be,
Must be crazy,
He looks up,
No one has dared to do that before.

Go away,
Leave me be,
I am unlovable,
The fates have chosen for me,
Chosen for me a life of solitude.

Cursed,
All I have ever known is good bye,
For I am never allowed,
Allowed to speak those 3 holy words,
I,
Love,
You.

Because for one to truly love,
one must let go.

I fear that,
letting go.
Believing that if I did,
I would fall into tiny pieces,
Left to be trampled on,
no one to glue me back together,
Fix me,
Save me.

Uneasy,
He doesn’t leave the wall,
He sits,
Calls up,
Waits,
But for how long?
He is a fool,
I cannot be loved,
For my tender heart,
It cowers behind stone,
Impenetrable.