I need you
the clothes on my back
the fears that keep me alive
the dreams that pull my present life off track
you the one who keeps me wanting to be alive

I want you
I want to see your face everyday
as your eyes are the window to a world I wish I could live in
I want to hold your hand
and I know I am shaking because I am nervous next to you
but it's only because the words I want to say to you want so badly to get out
but my tongue is a steadfast guard waiting at the gates of what I should and shouldn't do

I have to have you
I have to have the sun and the moon
the sky and the sea
the fire and the ice
awaiting all around me
For you are the sun
with radiance that brings life into existence
For you are the moon
a beacon of hope to all those who are tangled in the vines of their own beloved hate for themselves
For you are the sky and sea
I am a volcano and whenever I explode you are there to control my burning fire
you are the sky to push my lava back down to where I belong
on earth with you
You are fire
You do not fear me or anything else
You are ice
and my anger and yelling melts a little bitter deeper every time
until you are inside yourself

I know you hate me
but for you my love is unbearably true
My depression blossomed into a great redwood tree
and believe me I really ******* need you.