How is it that we only feel only what our mind let's us, how do we not let it win, how do we change ourselves from within. We're so used to how it feels to be in pain, that happiness for you and me are not the same. Our mind has more control over what we think, feel, our emotions and love, that what we think we could feel is never what it seems. It is real or fake, does someone love me or was it all a ******* lie for heaven's sake. Can you feel my heart beating violently inside my chest, can you hear my thoughts like a tornado never wanting to rest, at best in just a guest in my own mind. I have to sign in but I could never sign out. I'm trapped forever in such violent weather, waiting for the sun to shine like I was promised. Will I make it or will I drown in the deep waters or my mind, what will I find or will I stay blind. Open my eyes to your mercy and show me that you're bigger then all adversity. Calm my heart and appear in my head, tell me you're alive and not dead. You said, that the broken will mend. Lean on me and I will give you rest. Finally I've realized that this was all a test and you've been there holding out your hand saying son let me invest. Let me take it all away and give the strength I have today.