January 20, 2014; 8:00 p.m.
I still remember this moment like it just happened.
I till feel all the emotions that i felt.
I was the happiest person in the world.
Only if i knew what was to come, I could've saved myself from all the pain.
Only if i knew that after tomorrow i'd lose everything i ever cared about.
Yes, everything is gone now.
But yet, it is all my fault.
If only i would've stopped him from hurting himself over me that next day.
I don't know if i can ever fix anything i did wrong.
I don't even know half the stuff i did wrong.
Its been six months.
There's so many questions left unanswered.
Why I still love him.
Why i still care. Why I;m still trying after all this time.
Why i cant let it go.