I'm trying to not forget you, but I can't remember the things we talked about. I can't recall what we watched or listened to on those late nights. I don't remember how your hands felt through my hair, and I don't remember what your skin felt like against mine.
All I remember is how you loved me, how you often said it. I never said it back. Why?
I was afraid. Afraid of what could happen to us, afraid of my parents, afraid of loving you.
I loved you. I loved you with my everything. I had another, but I wanted you.
I craved you more than a druggie craved a needle poking into their arm. I craved you more than a cutter craved their blade.
I remember thinking I couldn't kiss you. --I couldn't take advantage of you the way your step-brother did. But, oh, how I wanted to grab you and throw you up against the wall and share my breath with you.
Honestly, I wanted your love. I had it, and you had mine. --You just didn't know it.
You will always have my heart. I am no longer afraid. I'm just a little bit late.