today I caught a leaf while walking in the park with your mother and you, rain falling, weeks after your father died in Cornwall.
walking through the slight drizzle, leaves clinging to the front of my shoes, and yours, and your mother's, made us look like foot-soldiers for autumn.
gusts of wind blowing up from the sheer drops to the Don River shook more leaves from the arms of mothertree which first argued them into life.
the great Niobes of maples and sumachs and oaks, now weakened, cling to themselves and shiver. I resolve to maintain the memory of their grief.
a breeze shakes loose a few more leaves - my hand snakes out like a wagonmaster's whip and catches one, to cradle
I put it in the side pocket of my car door, little knowing one windy day the following week it would be gone as intended