I am trapped in a house in my mind with shattered windows and pictures
of us glued to the walls and the sound of your voice telling me you don't love me.
I am sinking into the ground and I can't move but your voice follows me reminding me that I am loveless
and poison
I am poison and you drank from me and I am so sorry
I want to be a flower
a beautiful soft harmless flower
I want to love something without making it squirm and wither WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME I can't breathe without you I feel like I'm drowning in a sea of emptiness and it is so loud.
I remember when you told me you'd show me the moon but I think the moon had fled and the sky above the cloud is empty like me.
I wonder if you'll ever find it
and if you do will it make your lips slip into a smile at the thought of me or if you'll send it crashing down.